Alive

Take the menacing blade of glass in my right hands that is erratically trembling I hols my left arm on the floor and cut with the sharp blade cutting into my underarms Laceration after laceration is made in another bout of euphoric self harm Blood cascades from the deep wounds onto my wooden bedroom floor […]

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My Depression

My depression isn’t romantic its mind numbing boredom Its waking up aching in pain with this weight in your bones Its being able to leave my house for fear of a panic attack Its eschewing looking into the mirror for fear of seeing the monstrous creature that will materialise in the bathroom mirror Its going […]

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Death

Laying prostrate almost comatose in my bed dreaming of death Sick and twisted thought are ruminating in my mind I cant move from the pain of this depression i want death i want to be nothing I am already dead as the emotion has been vanquished from my body as this dead sensation permeates my […]

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Concealing My Disorder

I exist in this mask this persona that portrays a veneer of sanity Behind the mask lurks a inner world of darkness with a pernicious social anxiety and crippling depression that i conceal from all of humanity I go out to the world interact with friends smiling laughing concealing my pain never frowning never disclosing […]

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Silent Hurt

I’m screaming nobody hears my forlorn cries for help I bellow these laments of hurt that are lost in my introverted consciousness The hurt the goddamn hurt the pain of being aliveIts inside of this interminable unexpressed suffering Rather than express divulge my suffering i repress I retreat I lacerate my arms in a masochistic […]

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Terminal Depression

Can’t shake this pain It makes my bones ache with sadness I can barely walk i can barely function its so excruciating to live with This depression this pain is terminal its like having a cancer infecting you’re entire body One day i will awake and be unable to carry on living this way One […]

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Freak

The voices in my head as i gaze at my hideous visage in the mirrorFreak freak ugly monster you hideous unlovable cunt These internal voices reverberate in my fractured psyche They grow more vociferous as i interact with the general public I’m a unlovable freak a social leperIm cursed with this ugly exterior that is […]

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The Dark Foreboding Forest

I saunter outside into the unknown into the dark forest Its filled with creatures and monsters wanting to hurt me I am paralysed with anxiety as i wander alone into the forest The paranoia intensifies I don’t feel save her My heart races at a accelerated paceI am struggling to breathe my knees tremble my […]

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