Red

Red the spectacular awe inspiring colours of the sunsetAs I gaze at this psychedelic vision on the horizon Whilst instantaneous getting high on this potent cannabis Images memories from my past my turbulent tragic adolescence flood into my stoned consciousness A singular tear forms on my left eye lid It runs down my face as […]

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Voices In My Head

Lost in the walls of my mind Lost all alone with these venomous inner voices that reverberate inside my damaged mind They scream they bellow when i loom at my ghastly visage in the mirror They scream freak ugly scum as i shudder These voices bark at me in the night They tell me to […]

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The Darkest Day Part 3

After the priest powerful emotional soaring eulogy in which we rendered the funeral congregation to tears. My mums best friend since childhood Dorothy again delivered a funny poignant elocution filled with humorous anecdotes and lamenting the tragic untimely passing of her best friend. Then my father got up tentatively to recite a poem which encapsulated […]

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Dear Arya

I am writing this email to you to notify you of a few important momentous details that have been occurring in my life. Rather than have a brief phone interaction with i thought i could detail the events coming up in my life that you as my beloved daughter have a right to know about. […]

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Death

Laying prostrate almost comatose in my bed dreaming of death Sick and twisted thought are ruminating in my mind I cant move from the pain of this depression i want death i want to be nothing I am already dead as the emotion has been vanquished from my body as this dead sensation permeates my […]

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Dreams

Drifting away into realms of my subconscious I dream in colour with a polychromatic visions that float through my unconscious mindI am sailing through the vast wondrous galaxy with a awe inspiring incandescent stars beaming not my engrossed mind Reds and blues and greens illuminate the horizon I’m in ecstasy In this euphoric dream I’m […]

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Lost My Faith In God

Once upon a time i used to be a vehement vociferous believer in godI would habitually attend church on a Sunday I would carry the crucifix round my neck Every night I would say a prayer recite passages from the new a testament When my mother died when the genesis of my depression began It […]

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Tears Of Rage

Mother why have you forsaken me I was only 13 you left my life forever Suicide that my fragile heart shattered irrecoverably damaged I cried tears of rage night after night in the aftermath of your untimely demise God why have you let this tragedy transpire Why didn’t you shelter my mother from the tumultuous […]

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Thunderstorm

My anxiety is peaking the thunderstorm has begun The rumble of thunder followed by a exhilarating flash of lighting I had to close all my windows despite the sweltering heat I’m terrified of being struck by lighting Yet its truly exciting to witness a thunderstorm Maybe because i live in Britain where there’s a dearth […]

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Faith In God

God and the bible is a source of immense comfort to me In dark times when i am lost in the bleak vast wilderness When I traverse the valley of darkness this ancient gospel gives me comfort The profound teachings of Jesus that is eloquently elucidated in the bible warms my tender fragile heart The […]

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