Voices In My Head

Lost in the walls of my mind Lost all alone with these venomous inner voices that reverberate inside my damaged mind They scream they bellow when i loom at my ghastly visage in the mirror They scream freak ugly scum as i shudder These voices bark at me in the night They tell me to […]

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Freedom

I put on my noise cancelling headphonesThen the rhapsodic classical echoes into my ears I’m in heaven laying on my bed letting the serene luscious music take me to a higher plain of consciousness I close my eyes as psychedelic visions appear in my stoned mind I am free now in a high state with […]

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A Passenger

Existing as a observer of life Not actively engaging in the essential activities of the human race I’m on the outside wanting to be a participant in the wonders of life Wanting love wanting to traverse the globe and witness fantastical awe inspiring vistas but my disorder precludes me from venturing into the wide world […]

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My Body

In the mirror I inspect my body I am naked dissecting every flaw every crackLooking at my pallid emaciated body with horror No curves no shape just a flat 2d body devoid of personality I have no ass its no bumps just a flat featureless assMy breasts are tiny insignificant no man will be seduced […]

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The Ecstasy Of Self Harm

Its a Sunday evening i am laying on my black and white duvet gazing at the white featureless ceiling preparing my body and soul for a evening of blissful masochism. Its been months since my last glorious self harm session. I have been lacerating my under arm for years since i was 14 years old. […]

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Fucked Up In The Head

I’m damaged I’m broken I’m so fucked up in the head I hear voices they scream they bellow at me They call me ugly they call me a bitch These voices make me paranoid they tear me apart In public I’m so anxiety ridden i suffer from a panic attacks I feel so intensely self […]

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Blood On The Floor

I took a deep laceration this time There’s a profusion if blood that’s emanated from my arms The wound is deep it might scar it might require disinfectant to adequately heal The dangerously sharp shade of glass has left me in ecstasy tonight Tomorrow and for days i will be paralysed with excruciating agonising pain […]

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Insomnia

Haven’t slept for the past 2 nightsDon’t feel tired just weary in a perpetual state of anxiety 48 hours since i drift into unconsciousness I am afflicted with insomnia sporadically it occurs several times a year Right now I feel strange it’s like being stoned Going so lone without sleep you not really awake just […]

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