Dreams

Drifting away into realms of my subconscious I dream in colour with a polychromatic visions that float through my unconscious mindI am sailing through the vast wondrous galaxy with a awe inspiring incandescent stars beaming not my engrossed mind Reds and blues and greens illuminate the horizon I’m in ecstasy In this euphoric dream I’m […]

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My Room

The curtains are closed I’m tucked inside my cosy duvet I’m gazing at the assemblage of art scattered on my wallSoft soothing jazz is blaring from my speakers I’m lost in a trance like mediative state I smoke a thick cannabis joint that dulls my anxiety I am enthralled by the combination of music and […]

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The Wedding

Had to attend my fathers second wedding It was torture having to hide my anxiety my severe depression Forcing a insincere smile on staged photographs Pretending to be happy for my father pretending to be happy to be alive The social anxiety i endured was onerous I disappeared for hours in the toilet shacking twitching […]

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Ugly

Ugly on the inside as i am on the outside Inside I’m gnarled i hate myself Inside there lurks a darkness that remains unexpressed A sadness a wound that is slowly killing me On the outside is a grotesque perversion of a human being I lack beauty i lack any positive human attribute I am […]

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Breathless

I saw your photogenic image that captivated me that rendered me breathless I glimpsed a immaculate vision of a man With green emerald eyes of iridescent beauty that pierce into the caverns of my soul I stared at your face i scrutinised the contours of your chiselled face I was seduced by your tinder photographs […]

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My Body

In the mirror I inspect my body I am naked dissecting every flaw every crackLooking at my pallid emaciated body with horror No curves no shape just a flat 2d body devoid of personality I have no ass its no bumps just a flat featureless assMy breasts are tiny insignificant no man will be seduced […]

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She

She snarls at me puts me down viciously when i catch a glimpse of my reflectionShe is with all the time excoriating my behaviour She with glaring cold eyes humiliates me tears apart my delicate self confidence She bullies me constantly calls me names She calls me a slut a bitch ugly When i go […]

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