I loathe going to the dentist its one of my biggest phobias. Having a dentist inspect my repulsive English teeth. The entire experience of the dentist is a onerous torturous ordeal that i am forced to endure several times a year. I force myself despite the acuteness of my social anxiety i am subjected to […]

Its 5 o’clock on a Sunday evening I’m locked inside my gothically decorated fortress of solitude. I have made the momentous anxiety inducing decision to start talking about myself through the medium of YouTube. For months I have been ruminating about posting videos in which i elucidate my long term battle with untreated undiagnosed mental […]

Today was the day i lost my innocence forever when a horrifying tragedy befell our family. As the day progressed it seemed like a standard school day nothing exceptional or extraordinary. It was a Thursday afternoon when my father picked me up from my weekly cello lessons from my cello instructor. Normally i would saunter […]

The sky was eclipsed in darkness the landscape of my home town was devoid of colour of life. I peered outside my room and examined the bleak landscape i examined a dreary drab wet windy day. The sky was enclosed in a dark forbidding clouds that threatened a torrential downpour at any moment. The scenery […]

I awake from another night where I slept for a few hours. I seldom get a good nights sleep since i was condemned by this punitive prison to be confined in my solitary confinement cell. I was placed here for a minor transgression of the rules of the prison. It was decided by a vindictive […]

Since i was a teenager i have been afflicted with a crippling shyness. A social anxiety that has metastasised into a impairing personality disorder. When i was a precious introspective adolescent i was a deeply introverted individual who struggled to formulate friendships who was tortured with feelings of self loathing. The anxiety was pervasive in […]

I listlessly traverse to my warehouse 5 times a week. It’s like a beehive where worker drones make honey for a amoral monolithic corporate entity. As i travel to this grey lifeless colourless workplace environment my heart sinks into a prolonged state of melancholy. The sadness the malaise grows more intense as i become more […]